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I did something really stupid. Apr. 29th, 2008 @ 10:26 pm
Today I had to take a test so I could be considered for a county job that doesn't exist yet. (Long story.) It lasted about two hours during which time I had nothing to eat. Now, I did have a snack before I left, so I thought I'd be okay.

I was wrong.

About half way or two thirds, I'm not really quite sure, I started feeling funny. My stomach was growling and my fingers felt tingly like they were falling asleep. The test itself was pretty easy, but getting through it sure wasn't with the discomfort my body was going through.

By the time I finished the test my elbows ached and my legs felt like jelly. My head felt kinda wobbly, too. There was no way I was going to drive in that condition but what was I to do? I needed to find a vending machine and hope for something edible.

Well, there was one that offered lemonade, but that item was sold out. I went for a pop instead. First item on the ingredients list: high fructose corn syrup.

Hoo-boy. I drank just enough to feel semi-normal and then drove home.

I am so going to pay for that. Actually, I think I already am. Headache and some nausea to be precise. It's actually a little like a hangover without the fuzzy tongue.

From now on I line my pockets with me-friendly snacks. ~.~
Current Location: apartment
Current Mood: hungover
Current Music: (watching Forensic Files)

Stupidity and Water Treatment Nov. 26th, 2007 @ 04:29 pm
Okay, I just finished watching a documentary on the criptospuridia (sp?) outbreak in ... Oh crud I forgot the name of the city. It was on the shores of Lake Michigan, as I recall. (Really bad with names.)

Anyway, I won't bore/disgust you with the details but there was one bit that caught my attention particularly.

After the outbreak that city started using ozone rather than chlorine to sanitize the water because that's the only way to get rid of the parasite (aside from boiling the water, which I suppose is cumbersome for the volume of water run through every hour).

That city is now the only city in America to use ozone to filter water.

Why? What is so great about using chlorine?

Let me give you a run down of my thoughts on the subject:

1) Chlorine is toxic. Chlorinated pools always give me pink-eye and usually an upset stomach.

2) Chlorinated water tastes nasty.

3) Did I mention that chlorine is toxic?

Seriously, why don't we just give up on chlorination as a really bad idea and use this ozone filtering thing? To me it seems like the choice between bleach and vinegar in cleaning. Vinegar kills just as many nasty bugs and things and doesn't have the toxic effects on the user. (Unless your Kittenlark, vinegar smell makes her nauseous.)
Current Location: apartment
Current Music: (watching Forensic Files)

Lots of news! May. 11th, 2007 @ 05:31 pm
My Dad has a livejournal now! Though he has posted comments on my LJ under the moniker "Nanoc", it turns out that username has been taken. (By someone who doesn't seem to be using his/her journal. Oh well.)

Anyway, his journal is Through One Dad's Eye. While his user pic might be disturbing to some, I do believe the journal is worth reading.

Now that I have the blatant promotional stuff out of the way...

I'm probably going fishing with my uncles in the boundary waters! In case you don't know what that is, it's the system of lakes, rivers, swamps, and miscellaneous waterways that make up the boundary between Minnesota and Canada. Thus the name.

To look at a map of Minnesota you might be under the impression that the vast majority of northern Minnesota is either underwater or very close to it. You wouldn't be too far off. It is, in many respects, one big mosquito breeding ground. Thank goodness for insect repellent.

Oh, there is one bit of misinformation up there. I'm not going with all my uncles, just three of them. I have six uncles in total (not counting great uncles, that is). Mom's the second of seven and both her sisters are married.

I get to go fishing! Maybe, I hope, possibly, if the Lord is willing and the creek don't rise. There's a rather nasty wild fire up north, though it isn't near where we'd be going. Still, these things can spread pretty fast and it's been kinda dry up there. (Rather ironic, considering the number of semi-permanent bodies of water in the area.) Plus I have a nasty tendency to either get sick or get my period right before trips. I think it's mostly nerves.

(Deep, cleansing breaths. Deep, cleansing breaths.)

The trip is scheduled for next weekend. Not this weekend but the one after that. ^_^
Current Location: parlor
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: none at the moment

Weather and wierdness Apr. 3rd, 2007 @ 07:37 pm
Along with most of the northern half of the USA, my little slice of heaven-on-earth has been experiencing some hellish weather.

We're talking snow. In April. Now Minnesota is known for wacky weather, but April snow!?

To top it off, I have the worst cold/flu I've had in years. And it came up right after I started taking the new allergy medicine. Great.

Mom thinks it could be because I'm being detoxed and therefore bits of foriegn matter have shaken loose.

Whatever the reason, I'm sicker than a dog. (Why do we say that, anyway?)

So I spent most of the day watching cartoons, mostly on Toon Disney (love that channel). I started noticing the same name popping up in the credits of just about every show. Jim Cummings.

Where had I heard that name before?

Turns out he's something of a latter day Mel Blanc. (Man of a Thousand Voices.) If you watch cartoons, you've probably heard his voice, or some permutation of it.

Figuring out who he does is another matter entirely. You can't do it by ear alone unless you have some seriously good auditory training.

Lemme put it this way, his resume includes such diverse parts as Winnie the Pooh, Pete, and Tantor.

But this is where I really got interested. (Okay, I was interested before, but anyway.) He did Darkwing Duck!!! That's where I'd heard of him before!

Darkwing Duck is definitely in my top five favorite shows. I grew up on those wacky adventures. ^_^ Ah. Sweet memories.
Current Location: parlor
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: none--aside from ringing in my ears, or is that the computer

Watcho! Mar. 29th, 2007 @ 04:23 pm
I am so glad I brow-beat my doctor into setting me up with an allergy/asthma specialist. Despite his insistence that I didn't have a problem with that, I found the trip highly informative.

Okay, the good news. I don't seem to have asthma. (I say seem because I don't know if their little breath test picks up on exertional asthma.)

Bad news... I'm allergic to just about every tree in the American Midwest.

Not to mention mites, cockroaches, ragweed (who isn't?), two very common lawn grasses, and a couple hard to spell types of mold. Oh, and cats.

But I like kitties! T.T

That might explain why I didn't feel to great at that demon landlady's place, though it probably wouldn't have been so bad if she'd actually change the litter-box once in a while. (It's only a moderate allergy.)

All the allergies are mild to moderate, so alone they don't cause too much trouble. Except one of the molds, that's a bad allergy and quite common, the air right now is probably full of it. (Spring dampness. Blegh.)

All these allergies together make for one very miserable me. And though the specialist claimed the chest pressure was entirely due to anxiety, I wouldn't be at all surprised to find that it goes away once the new medicine gets into my system.

Yeah. I have more medicine to take everyday. A really foul tasting nasal spray that makes me throw up if it gets into my esophagus. Joy.

The test covered most naturally occurring allergies, but I noticed that he didn't go into artificial ones, like fertilizer, gasoline, and preservatives. I know I have reactions to them, but it'd be nice to have official recognition.

Anyway, that's all I've got for now.
Current Location: parlor
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: none

Now for something completely different... Feb. 26th, 2007 @ 02:55 pm
Well, I got that bit of self-examination out of the way. (Though I do somewhat disagree with the label 'conservative'. Whole other topic.)

Anyway, we've finally gotten some serious ground covering snow here. Just in time for spring.

Don't you just *love* Minnesota?

I'd be out in it with several layers of warm, protective clothing except for one little detail.

I hab a code. *snerk*

Which also means that I'm not volunteering today. I don't get my kitty fix! I sure hope Sassy doesn't miss me too much. (She's such a sweet cat, and usually the only customer I get at the nursing home's gift shop.)

Anything else? Well, I could rant about 'moral equivalency' and the necessity of standards, if only on a personal level. But does anyone really want to hear it? (Read it, whatever.)

I have fanart!!! Mineka C. drew an absolutely adorable fanart for Mary Quite Contrary! It's in my gallery. It's all that's in my gallery. (Please visit MQC!) <--- Blatant self promotion.
Current Location: basement
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: none

A not so new approach to women's health. Jan. 29th, 2007 @ 02:39 pm
I've heard of people taking birth control pills mainly to deal with painful periods. No, really. There are even some pro-life girls I've met who've done this.

Now, I can kinda sympathize. Periods are rough at their best and I tend to get some real doosies.

Thing is, 'The Pill' and its various permutations have way to many potentially hazardous side effects for my taste. (Like blood clots, heart attack, increased blood pressure, depression, vaginal infection, bone density loss, ect.)

Not to mention that they typically don't so much ease the pain of your period but actually stop it from happening all together. Anything that messes with your body chemistry like that worries me.

And what if you do get pregnant while on 'The Pill'? You won't know until your belly starts ballooning out, and even then you might not be sure since weight gain is another common side effect. So all that time you're taking that drug and the baby's in there running greater and greater risks of getting some serious congenital disorder. And that's not taking into account the increased risk of ectopic pregnancy, which is way nasty. Nooo thank you. If I don't want to get pregnant I won't have sex.

And as for the trouble with periods...

Mom introduced me to something called evening prinrose oil. It's a natural plant extract with a lot of medicinal properties, most particularly for my interest was it's effect on my periods. Since taking it regularly I haven't had a single debilitating cramp or spasm during my period. And there hasn't been any effect on the duration or frequency of my periods.

It's also supposed to help lower cholesterol, decrease the symptoms of cystic breast disease and certain skin disorders (eczima being one of them, apparently, and reduce breast pain. Sounds like a good, all around women's suppliment.

Now, there are side effects but most of them come from certain additives that some companies add to the oil, either for taste or as a preservative. And, like every other substance that is at all connected to gynecology, it's not recommended for use during pregancy or breast feeding. Not that you'd need it during that time since you wouldn't be having periods anyway.

I've also heard that the side effects are more common in men who take it. Why they'd want to I have no idea.

Anyway, evening primrose oil sounds really safe. Heck, it's about as safe as it gets if I can take it in those soft gel tablets. When I've tried to take vitamin E in a soft gel I get gas and stomachaches. I don't get any of that with evening primrose.

Yay!!
Current Location: basement
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Kalaedo Stage theme running through my head.

Stupidity and strange luck Jan. 12th, 2007 @ 01:55 pm
This is, what, the third time I've tried to update my journal in the past two days? Both previous times Firefox 'encountered a problem' and had to close. Crazy.

Thank goodness a copy got saved on the site.

>>>
This country's leaders are nuts about avoiding controversy and/or insulting someone. So much so that they actually start controversy and insult people.

I think the best example lately was what happened at the New York City fire department. The firefighters were forced to get rid of a bunch of American flags and 9/11 memorabilia they had in their lockers. The reason was that it was potentially offensive and controversial.

Excuse me??!!

Since when is displaying the flag of the country you live in, *in* the country you live in, offensive and controversial? And don't these firefighters have a right, almost a duty, to honor the memory of their fallen comrades?

Oh brother.

A little closer to home (my home, anyway), I heard that a kid on a St. Paul, Minnesota, school bus got kicked off for -- get this -- speaking English.

I didn't believe it either, but my Dad did some checking. Turns out this school has a bunch of 'academies' in it that are separated by country of origin. The academies are there to help students from other countries learn English and cope with their new homeland.

The students are not allowed to intermingle with students from other countries and they are not allowed to mingle with English speaking students.

...

And how is this supposed to help them learn English, let alone cope with their new homeland?

Now, the kid who got kicked off the bus did get kicked off because he said something in English. Thing is, his family had also recently moved outside that school district so technically he wasn't supposed to be on the bus in the first place.

Still, this is just crazy. Brings to mind the old segregation days with black and white water fountains.

This has become something of a rant column, hasn't it? ^^; I just keep running into such stupid, brain-dead idiotic stunts!
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I've got a real nasty cold. Maybe that's why I'm in such a ranting mood.
Current Location: basement
Current Mood: my nose runneth over
Current Music: occassional noseblowing, by me

Randomness. Oct. 9th, 2006 @ 05:51 pm
Well, Dad's not coming home for a while longer than we'd hoped. He's still having trouble getting up stairs (i.e. can't do it period), so there's no way he'd be able to get around the house.

*sigh* I really miss him. But at least he's improving. So that's a good thing.

Besides that... well, I haven't been feeling to great but it's probably nerves for the most part. Or sinuses. I have been a little sniffly lately. I just hope I don't get too sick by the weekend. I get to go to Valley Con! The major sci-fi/fantasy convention in the Red River Valley (possibly the entire states of Minnesota and North Dakota).
Current Location: basement
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: none

Surgery update Oct. 7th, 2006 @ 07:40 pm
Mom and Kittenlark showed up a little after 11:30am today, much to my little brother's delight.

Dad wasn't with them because his new hip and socket arrangement is still rather stiff. Makes sense, seeing as he hasn't used the original very much lately. (Pain is a great deterent from movement.) He might be back Monday or Tuesday. Or maybe later. It's all very tentative.

But it's looking good and the last time I talked with him he sounded fine and didn't scream in pain once.

Grandpa's out of the hospital, seems the pnemonia is clearing up nicely.

So everything seemed to be on the way back to normal. Well, normal with a few alterations.
Current Location: basement
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: none
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» So... what's new?
Dad's currently either in surgery or in recovery. Don't know which, Mom's supposed to call after 3.

Yesterday my paternal grandpa went to the doctor after feeling seriously off his feed for a couple weeks and discovered that he has pnemonia in both lungs.

My little brother is despondent at having Mom, Dad, and Kittenlark far away and thus ended up getting sick at school.

(Kittenlark is with Mom and Dad because she doesn't like being away from Mom. And she gets to visit with some cousins into the bargain.)

I'm not too upset about my little brother coming home early, because this place is kinda spooky when I'm alone. Not to mention *huge* and quiet. Very quiet.

Thankfully, Grandpa seems to be doing fine and with any luck Dad et. al. will be back late Saturday or early Sunday.

I think the scariest thing is cooking for myself. Little brother is easy, all he eats are hotdogs and balogna sandwiches. Me... microwave leftovers?
» A week and 1 1/2 days
Today's the 25th. Wow, how time flies. Dad's birthday is this weekend. (Still don't have a present for him.)

The point is that a week and 1 1/2 days from now Dad'll be in the hospital for hip replacement. About time, too.

Of course, Dad's really nervous, which makes him a bit manic depressive. Boy, has it been interesting around here. @.@ I just hope the surgery goes all right. He's supposed to get the other hip replaced in about 6 weeks. (I wonder what percent cyborg that'll make him?)

"I'll be bahk."
» So, where have I been?
Not much of anywhere, but I've been doing quite a bit.

-I took a test to see how my brain works. This should be interesting.
-I applied for a job and got an appointment for an interview this Wednesday. Wish me luck!
-I've helped babysit.
-I've tried to get back on track with my Medical Coding Course which I neglected during the heat wave because the one good study area in the house was also one of the hottest.
-I've worked on my up-coming webcomic so I can have a bunch ready by September.
-I've tried desperately to overcome my creative funk by working through a book called "Dancing In The Dragon's Den". So far it's been mostly self discovery stuff.
-I did a guided imagery thing from said book and found that the creative sign/symbol thingy that's supposed to help inspire me is a ferret. oO
-I've undergone a number of emotional rollercoaster rides probably caused by stress from any one of the afore mentioned projects or some combination there of.
-And just this morning and afternoon I killed my feet. But I did get quite a few hours in at the dairy, and got talked into the same thing tomorrow and Wednesday. (Though I am going to try really hard to get out before the job interview. EEEEEEEEEE.)

I can't believe I'm going to be getting up at 7am so I can do a job the upper half of my body has no problem with but the lower half absolutely dispises. I try consoling my legs and feet by reminding them that I'm getting paid $9/hr, but I don't think they really care.

Man, I hope I get that hotel clerk job.
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Another quiz discovered through [info]versari_girl.

What's your inner deity? by Eurudite
Name/Username
Godly NameMournamune
God/Goddess of:The Sun
Weapon of Choice:Hammer
Area of Origin:China
Animal Familiar:Coyote
Weakness:Mercury
Guilty Pleasure:video games
Little Personality Quirk:You love the smell of rain
Eyes:Are always shifting color to match your moods.
Hair:Blue so dark it's black
Special Features:Dragonfly Wings
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Right. Well, at least the coyote is related to wolves.

Argu-They're skinny, mangy, knock offs of wolves. Not as bad as dogs, but close. And my hair isn't blue, it's brown.

Yeah, except for your belly, with is more greyish. (That's going to be tough explaining when you're human.

Argu-And I wouldn't be caught dead with dragonfly wings pasted on my back.

(Insert evil laugh.)

Anyway, I could see Argu getting hooked on video games. Particularly the dark violent types.

Next on the chopping block is Giol.

What's your inner deity? by Eurudite
Name/Username
Godly NameBaronun
God/Goddess of:Decay
Weapon of Choice:Morning Star
Area of Origin:Asia
Animal Familiar:Jackal
Weakness:The death of an innocent
Guilty Pleasure:video games
Little Personality Quirk:You are a sadist
Eyes:Deep Blue
Hair:Wild, sandy mane
Special Features:You can turn to stone
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Giol-That doesn't sound like me at all! ToT I'm not a sadist!

Argu-At least they got your eye color right.

Yeah, other than that, nothing seems to fit. (Particularly the 'God of Decay' part.)

Let's try this with Giol's actual name. (Which I am deleting from the visible result here for dramatic reasons.)

What's your inner deity? by Eurudite
Name/Username
Godly NameArtenmet
God/Goddess of:Art
Weapon of Choice:Sickle
Area of Origin:Forgotten Civilization
Animal Familiar:Lion
Weakness:You need to sleep more often than most
Guilty Pleasure:video games
Little Personality Quirk:You like to sleep in...a lot
Eyes:Rose Red
Hair:White as snow.
Special Features:An incredibly hard skull
Quiz created with MemeGen!


Wow. Aside from the appearance, this is really close.

Giol-Uh, I don't use weapons.

I didn't say it was perfect. ~.~;

Anyway, now that the fun stuff is done, you can read about my day under the cut.

Heat, heat, and more heat. )
» Good Friday
Good grief. I mean, this is a really important day and all, but fasting is a real bear.

Yeah, Jesus died on the cross to save us from our sins, so a little fasting isn't all that much in comparison. Still, I'd rather not feel sick just because I'm only allowed one full meal.

~.~ Hypoglycemia is not fun. I suppose I might be allowed an exception, but there's something in me that just wouldn't feel right eating normally while everyone else is fasting. What a dilema.

Anyway. Now that I have the semi-angsty stuff out of the way, on to something totally pointless.


The wanderer - The lost
The one who never has a place to belong. The outcast amongst people, Wanderers find life to be rather lonely. There is an empty feeling inside of them that they can't seem to get rid of. However, not all is pain for them. Despite what others might think, they are very much capable of being happy and sad. Due to the fact that Wanderers always feel misplaced -to some extent- some adjust to how others are, just to have a place to be. The others in this category tend to shy away from people, preferring their own company, certain that they don't fit in. Both categories however, do keep most of their personal thoughts inside.

Wanderers tend to wish for a place where they are meant to be, resulting in a lot of daydreaming. Personality wise they are, in fact, dreamers. It doesn't mean they believe that they wish for will come true. Their inner world is simply better than this one. Most Wanderers try to find their special place, no matter if they are a passive-aggressive or a fearless individual. It is something they are drawn to do by nature.

Wanderers are also found to be hard to truly satisfy. Nothing will ever be the way they would have preferred/wanted it to be, and they tend to be disappointed a lot. It is not that they are perfectionists, they simply want for something to feel "right". Because of this, they often second-guess things/actions/relationships. Low selfsame is a high possibility, as they often doubt themselves.

As their hole in their heart is constantly there, they may be prone for depression, as rarely anything is giving them true satisfaction. One day they may find their personal heaven, but it is important they are not too caught up in fantasies, or else they might pass by it blindly, missing it forever.

Quote:"Illusion is the first of all pleasures." -Oscar Wilde

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Interesting. And rather like me in many respects.

And is it just me or has Quizilla gotten a lot more complecated with their result codes? I have to do a lot of editing with the code so that it shows up neat and tidy on my journal.



Your power is: Extreme healing powers
Explanation: When injured your body focuses on the wound and heals rapidly, within a few seconds. This makes you pretty much hard to kill and you can help people in danger using yourself as a shield. Almost anything is possible in combat but you prefer looking after others. In bad purposes you can do the same as above but for evil intentions.

This power fits you pretty good since you want to help those around you, and when you are pretty much unstopable, that's not an obsticle. You are caring and nurturing and are more a pascifist. Even if you know there are much unfairness in the world you still chose to see from a positive angle because you belive in the good of this world. You are probably friendly and have a soft spot for people who are not accepted. Though to others you come of as naive and gullible. You could be taken advantagde of if the wrong person comes around. Even if you could be seen as pure, you are not that completely since you're human and make mistakes too.
Negative aspects: If your naiveness has been making you blind for too long you could go into dark thinking.

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Rather common result for me. And rather useful. Super healing powers! ^o^/


Your Inuyasha. Fighting crime and all over fantasy! It pulls you in a whole new aura. Don't get too close to the t.v or you will lose your eye balls...

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Yay! My favorite anime! ^-^ Inuyasha! But what's that about fighting crime? Has this person actually watched the show??
» I'm sneezy...
My cold appears to be getting worse. Of course that's nothing to what my little brother is going through. He can barely talk, he doesn't want to eat because everything he puts in his mouth tastes bad, he's got an upset stomach, and he has to go to school.

Why?

Because the stupid powers that be in Minnesota have decided in their infinite wisdom that children can only be sick from school a certain number of days out of the year. If that number is exceeded then the parents get in trouble and a social worker has to come and evaluate the situation.

>< grrrrrrrrrrr

The rational is that some children are abused and parents will keep them home as if they're sick to hide the evidence. Understandable, I suppose, but if what they're worried about is child abuse couldn't they come up with some other way?

I mean, yeah, the situation could be solved by getting a doctor to look at my little brother and tell us what we already know. The school would be happy but we'd be out a lot of money that we don't have. Finances are kinda tight here and we just can *not* afford a trip to the doctor.

But that's what the State of Minnesota wants. Either make the kid go to school or present a signed notification from a doctor that the child is indeed sick. Yeah. I'd like to give them that notification and shove it right down their throats.

Seriously, I've had it with the school system. First the superintendant gave my folks hell because they had me homeschooled (among the top best things they ever did for me, BTW), then all the stupid State issued learning packets with problems even my Dad couldn't solve (mainly because there were no real answers), and now this.

It's times like this that I really wish I could turn into a big narly animal with fangs and claws. Particularly the fangs. For some reason incredible stupidity like this makes me want to bite things.
» Just an update
There really isn't much to report, but Kittenlark insists that I update. (Why? I live in the same house as her now.)

Anyway... I'm sick (currently wearing a surgical mask to facilitate breathing and contain my coughing), little brother's sick, Mom's *really* sick, Dad's sick, Kittenlark's kinda sick, and I still don't have a job.

Life is so wonderful. ~.~;

Seriously, I really like being able to spend time with my family. It's just so frustrating being sick and unemployed. (Though I suppose if I had to catch this bug it's best now while I don't have a job to lose.)

And then I tried a couple quizzes. Well, more than a couple, actually, but I'm not going to display all the results.




what is your anime hair color?( i dont give a crud who takes this.girl pics)

you have blue.
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Eh.
» Finally some artwork!
I bet Kittenlark has been waiting with bated breath for this one. (Okay, maybe not.)

Akasuki finished. FINALLY!

In other news, I will be moving home this weekend. Yay! Still have things to pack, so it's going to be hectic. (Do you have any idea how much stuff has to be saved for the last minute?? Good grief! @~@ ) Just my luck to catch a cold.

TV's still caput. Of course, I can't get it to the repair shop. >.< This is highly vexating.
» ooog
The only reason I didn't go to Mass today is because... uh, actually, you probably don't want me to discuss details.

Let's just say that I'm not feeling well and I'm very glad my stomach hasn't decided to go into reverse. Yet.

The crazy thing is I don't have a fever. I'm tired, pale, and generally feel yucky. That really doesn't help when calling for health advise. Sometimes I think nurses and doctors don't take me seriously. They can't find anything 'wrong', so they figure it's all in my head.

Of course, it could be stress related, so technically it would be 'all in my head' (and spreading to the rest of me). That's what's so crazy making! Because if it is stress then there isn't anything I can do except deal with the symptoms and hope I get better after the move. (Going home, nice. Moving my junk, not so nice. And expensive.)

If there is something wrong, though, it's invisible to the 'experts'. Last time I was in a situation like this it took throwing up and nearly fainting in the councilor's office to get people moving. And the problem was exactly what I'd been saying all along. Wrong medication. ~~| oiiiiiiii

Now this. Fooy.

But there's something else I wanted to talk about. It's a bit of a mystery.

Many years ago (many, many years ago) I was playing by the patio door. I think it was late spring. Funny thing, we have a patio door but no patio. The door looks out on a patchy section of yard with a sandbox, shed, and a lawn chair that used to be white. There are three reasons why that piece of yard was so patchy, Nightengale, Kittenlark, and myself.

Anyway, I looked up and saw something unlike anything I'd ever seen or have seen since.

A huge squirrel was sitting on the lawn chair.

I'm not talking fox squirrel big, I'm talking mondo-freaky big. It sat on the arm of the chair with it's nose at the end and it's rear at base with its tail draped over the back of the chair. It was grey with a white muzzle and belly. It's tail was long and feathery. It seemed to look at me with it's big black eyes as I tried to get someone's attention to come see this strange squirrel. Just my luck that everyone would be in another room.

Before anyone reached me the squirrel jumped off the chair, bounded across the lawn and leapt right into a tree.

No, not onto, into. It was one of those trees with lots of little suckers and fuzzy leaves near the base. The foliage hid the trunk from a distance but really didn't offer much cover beyond that. Even so that squirrel dived headlong into the tree and vanished. No shaking of leaves as it ran up the trunk, no flash of a tail as it rounded the tree into the bushes, nothing.

Obviously, this story was taken with a certain amount of disbelief. I mean, a giant squirrel appeared and disappeared from the yard without a trace? I think everyone tried to believe me, but I know they had a hard time. Dad asked if I was sure about the size. A squirrel that long didn't seem right to him.

The memory comes back once in a while. I still wonder what I saw. Like I said, I've never seen anything like it before or since. I haven't found anything like it in any mammals of North America books. But I *saw* it.

But *what* was it? A strange halucination? An incredibly rare breed of squirrel that no one has documented? Some sort of squirrel spirit?

I really wish I knew.
» About time for an update
Well, it's been a week, so I really should update this thing.

But I really don't have much in the way of art.

Eh, I did get a little further with that picture I was working on. Here's a little look at my progress.

Akasuki in steps

Wow. That stinks. Guess the number of colors was too much for a GIF file. Anyway, you get the idea.

Oh, and I have some interesting news. I'm moving!

Yes, after a year in this apartment, trying and failing to support myself, and generally making a mess of this thing called independence, I am going home.

I'm moving to my hometown and I'll try to find a job there. Even if I don't find one right away there's a Walmart coming to town so I should be able to find something there.

It's kind of a hard decision. On the one hand I'm going home. On the other I'm leaving a sister behind who's finishing up her first year at college. Not to mention <lj user="sable_cat>. *sigh* There are no easy choices, but I really am looking forward to returning to my hometown. With hills. The Red River Valley might have great farm land, but it's landscaping leaves something to be desired. And being able to walk a few blocks and be away from everything. Forests, swamps, winding trails... Nirvana. Mom's gonna want to get me a cellphone. For safety. ^_^ Personally I think a mallet would be more effective. Or pepper spray. My little brother is going to be ectatic. Though I do hope to limit how long I spend at home. After I get a job I'll work on getting an apartment. And speaking of work, I missed it today. Despite a stomach ache I was trying to get there, but then I had some bad dizzy spells. No way I was going to work then. Crud. Like I don't have enough problems.
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